It's a numbers kind of day:
- March 18, 2009 - the date of my first post on this blog - so just over 5 years ago
- 36 school days left
- by Sunday I'll be under 50 days left til retirement
- I'll turn 58 in a couple of weeks
- this is the 2nd day of riding my bike to school - I may live to regret that as thunderstorms are in the forecast this afternoon! (Update - there were a few sprinkles on my bike ride home but the heavy rain didn't start til after I got home:)
- 7 "official weekends" left after which I'll have one Looooooooong weekend :)
- 2 - the number of the games the Habs have to win to move to the next round of NHL playoffs - hope they can do it!
Started this post yesterday, then got busy and put it aside. Story of my life!
I'm feeling in a bit of a funk even though I should be on top of the world. I went into my list of blog followers and blocked Michael. I'm not sure if that will prevent him from being able to read my blog. If not then perhaps he will read this and take the hint. He keeps finding ways to stay attached to me and I find it very unsettling. I've been censoring my writing thinking he might be reading. He UN-followed me a few months ago then began following me again to keep in touch. He UN-friended me on Facebook then a while ago sent me a Friend Invitation. Which I declined.
A couple of weeks ago he approached me with the offer of "friendship". I haven't responded to that overture but I must because these "communications" are really having an adverse effect on me. I'm trying to find joy in life again but feel this overbearing presence weighing me down. Why is he doing this? What does he really want?
I'm tired of not being able to say what I want when I want to say it. I mean, this is MY blog. He texted me saying someone left a comment on one of my posts calling him "cheap" and that really bothered him. Why is that MY problem??
STOP READING MY BLOG MICHAEL AND THEN YOU WON'T GET HURT BY COMMENTS! LET ME BE SO I CAN FREELY WRITE WHAT I WANT AND NEED TO WRITE. IF I WANT TO VENT ABOUT YOU I WILL!! IT'S NO LONGER ANY OF YOUR BUSINESS. I NEED TO HEAL AND I CAN'T IF YOU DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU LIED TO ME ABOUT THE OTHER WOMAN, THEN FESSED UP AND YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME? JUST EXACTLY WHAT IS THE SIZE OF YOUR EGO? YOU MUST THINK I HAVE ZERO SELF-RESPECT IF YOU THINK I WOULD WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND NOW.
That's if for now folks. From now on I will write from my heart.