Packing up a Dream

I am busy busy with packing up my belongings in my PEI home. It's a complicated process. There is the stuff I have to take home with me when I leave, hopefully soon; the stuff I want to keep but don't have enough room to take this year so it'll go to my sister's house, errrr sheds; and the stuff that I am going to donate to the Salvation Army. I've already taken a huge load to the Salvation Army and donated about half of my clothes to the Bargain Nook in Alberton. (Today when I was in the grocery store in Alberton I saw a woman wearing one of the tops I donated last week!! Looked good on her too!)

Today I worked in the kitchen, going through all of the cupboards and sorting things out into the 3 different destination piles. I also had a visit from a "former blogger", Johanna and her beau and it was so nice to see them. It's been two years since her last visit and lots has changed in both of our lives since then.

My friend Julie has been an enormous help; keeping me fed and "watered" during my emotional journey. On Wed. I'll be driving her to the airport in Charlottetown and I'll miss her immensely, but if my luck holds out I'll be joining her in London soon. Perhaps you've noticed the change of my header photo - that's my cute little condo this past spring when my crabapple tree was in bloom and my bleeding heart bush. Sweet isn't it? And I changed my photos to a self-portrait of myself in my university days and one of Kazi and myself at one of my retirement dinners.

I think I've settled on which trailer I would like to buy IF it's still available when I'm finally finished up with this place. I may have good news on that score but will wait til I know for sure. Here are pictures of the trailer I'd like to buy:

 Nice covered deck on the back, so even if it's raining I can sit outside!

This is the front, there is a small porch and an addition to the trailer. Also you can see a sweet little shed at the back.

The lot is really nice - lots of trees, bushes and lawn, and of course a firepit!

I want lots of space for visitors (a grandchild someday?) See how there is a dividing wall that can be pulled across to create a bedroom for guests? Also the addition is large and can be an extra bedroom!

Kitchen/dining area, though most cooking and eating would take place outside.

But for now it's a dream so I can't get too invested in this place. Looking around at what's available helps keep me sane and diverts me from what I am losing.  What I wish I could do is pick up Crofters Lane, forest, water view and all and drop it down on the outskirts of London.  But since I can't do that I amuse myself with other possibilities.

I should know something definite about the possible sale of this house Wednesday night so stay tuned!

Sorry for the Mystery...

but Crofters Lane is going up for sale.  I needed to let family members know first before I shared the news here. I just find it too painful to live here alone. Too many memories and you can't hug a memory. Someone famous said that (you can't hug a memory); I read it yesterday and thought "that's how I feel; this place is so full of memories yet I can't grasp them and hold them - they're gone." Sorry, I can't remember whose quote it is or I'd cite him/her.

And I find I want to be at home in London with my daughter.  Crofters Lane no longer feels like home. One person does not make a home.  I know y'all were rooting for me to make a go of it here but the bottom line is I can't.

On the bright side, because there is always a bright side in my world, all those renos I've been doing in the condo will be for ME as I won't be selling it now. If I had oodles of money I could keep both but honestly I don't have a good feeling now when I'm here so I'd rather sell. And I don't have oodles of money.

The money I do have will go to make my mortgage-free condo a super duper place to live in ( my mind is busy with plans for the condo now that I'm not prepping it for sale!!) plus I'm thinking that when Crofters Lane sells I'll buy a trailer once again. I had one for a few years and really loved going there; it was near Bayfield and only an hour from home. I found that maintaining a condo and a trailer was very doable for me as a single person. I would get a REALLY REALLY nice one too with a guest bedroom, something like this:

Here's one I really would like to get but it'll likely be sold by the time I'm ready to buy but I enjoy looking:

Nice huh?  Just a little summer get away place :)  Well, a girl can dream can't she? And this isn't just a dream - it WILL happen!

Don't feel bad for me, the writing was on the wall back in December when Michael left. I came out to PEI, I gave it a shot, I worked hard but it isn't meant to be. It was a dream that went off the rails. I'm putting paid to that dream and creating a new dream of my very own.

This is the end of Crofters Lane posts. I may post about prepping it for sale and obviously when it sells but that's it. The dream stops here.

And a new and improved life begins HERE!!