Monday, December 23, 2013

Can't think of a title

Sorry not to be in touch.

Just one short week ago I couldn't imagine that I would be writing this - but Michael has left me. In the span of one week he told me he didn't feel he could move to PEI and that he feels he needs to live on his own.

Right now he is staying with a sister in Kitchener. He said he would stay with her over the two week Christmas break and then come back to London and decide what to do next. I didn't realize that meant that while Kazi and I were in Toronto for our Les Mis weekend he would be moving his stuff out of our home. I came home to find an empty closet, empty dresser and thought I was going to die.

I can't even think about what I'm going to do tomorrow, or the next day, let alone the rest of my life. It has been turned upside down and sideways. My (our) plans have gone up in smoke. The only decision I've been able to make is to NOT make any decisions.

I know this is a real shocker for you, it was a shock to me also. I felt that all was going well, extremely well in fact. I was in no way prepared for this. Just writing this is making me feel like I am going to throw up.

So on that note I'll end for now and provide more info later. I just wanted to give you an update as I know I left things up in the air with my last post.

26 comments:

Rachel Davis said...

Oh Jane, I am so sorry! Praying that you find peace and this is just a bump in the road. I sincerely hope that things work out for you.

Sluggy said...

Oh Jane, I'm so sorry.
Not making any rash plans is a good thing.
Just breath..... and accept my cyber hug. (((((((((((((Jane))))))))))))))

Judy said...

Oh Jane I am so sorry and totally dumbstruck. I agree not making plans is the thing to do right now. Please know you are in my prayers and thoughts. We are here when you need us no matter what time of the day. Sending you hugs and lots of support.

Christy said...

Jane,
So sorry to hear this. Sending healing thoughts your way.
Christy (from Brighton)

Jane said...

Oh Jane, if you need time to think...or just be...our home is open to you.
E mail me if you need us.
japawomo@xplornet.ca
Jane x

~Carla~ said...

OMG. I'm so sorry, and shocked. :( I'm not far away... I'd love for you to come for coffee if you want company over the holidays... Sending you love & prayers!! (((Hugs)))

livingrichonthecheap said...

How gutting. I really don't know what to say except we are here for you to vent, cry, scream and yell to

it's me sam said...

Oh Fawk... ( excuse my language)... Sending you lots of hugs...

jolie said...

oh hugs. just ..unlimited hugs, my friend.

Lisa Richardson said...

Jane, sending you (((hugs)))!! No decisions is a good decision. Cry, scream, and cry some more. Rely on your friends that are close by and know that your cyber friends will be with you through this.

Jennifer said...

I've been reading your blog but I've never commented. I wanted to comment this time, as your story has really touched me. I am so terribly sorry. You don't know me, but I'd like to send you a very big virtual hug.
I can tell from your blog that you are an amazing lady... Please take care of yourself.
Jennifer

Louise said...

oh Jane,,, so sorry to hear this, thinking of you ((( hugs)))

Mary said...

I'm so very sorry, Jane. A big hug to you from a long time blog reader. You are an awesome lady and will get through this. You are loved by your family and friends and are not alone.
Mary

Suzanne said...

Just lots of hugs and good thoughts your way.

witchisland blogspot. ca said...

Jane,
So sorry to be reading this. I'm sure you didn't have any idea this was coming which is why it will be hard to accept or even understand the thinking behind this action. Scream,vent,cry lots gather support and love from your family,friends and cyber buddies. You will get through this, it will just take some time but you have a huge support base at your finger tips. Don't be afraid to use us!!!
Sending hugs...

BKat said...

Jane - I felt sick reading your post. You are smart, strong and resourceful. The best decision is not to make any right now. Huge hugs. You have my positive thoughts sent your way.

Take care.

BKat

Frugal mummy said...

Just hang on in there honey xxx we are here for you (wish I lived closer).
Take each step and each day as it comes and just breathe.
And please let us know what we can do to help you, once you know. Xxxxx

Marjorie Stintzi said...

Hugs

Psychsarah said...

Wow-never expected to read this! Just as I'm sure you never expected to write it. I'm thinking of you as you work through this difficult time. You are so wise to put any decisions on hold till the dust settles. Sending you big squeezy hugs. You'll be ok in time, but I imagine that's hard to envision at the moment. Take care of yourself-you have lots of friends here to support you.

kim said...

Boy I am sick to my stomach. All of those plans. I am so sorry. I am crying for you. But I am also here for you.

Canadian Saver said...

Oh Jane, I am really sorry to hear this {{{hugs}}}

Barb said...

Jane I am so very sorry. I know it feels like the rug has been pulled out from under you. I am a long time reader and have come to really admire you. You will survive this (although it may not feel like it right now). Take care of yourself ok?

Sharon said...

Oh Jane, I'm so sorry to hear this. I agree making no decision is the right decision right now. I can only imagine what you are feeling, especially around the holidays. So.not.fair.
Take your time, breathe, and know that you are loved by all of us too! We are here for you. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

Judi said...

So sorry to be reading this! Thinking of you...

Lena said...

Oh, Jane, my friend, I'm so so sorry!!! Hugging you really tight right now...

Sonya Ann said...

I'm so sorry that I missed this and that I wasn't here to leave a comment sooner. The love is still there.
I will tell you what I see as an outsider. He seemed like he let you shoulder the work load and he was willing to let you pay for everything. He seemed to be using you for an easier life. I see this as a good thing. I'm sorry. Sometimes you can't tell the bad news from the good news. You are better off. WOW I wrote this without calling him a SOB. I'm so proud of me.