An ADD Post

In addition to being an introvert I have ADD. That's actually not a bad thing to have as an adult - I can multi-task like nobody's business and even though my desk is covered...I mean COVERED by about a dozen different tasks in various stages of completion I can always get it all pulled together by the end of a school day.  I can also hear every single conversation going on in the classroom, every noise every student makes and am thus alerted to anything unusual very quickly. Which is also a good thing with a class full of students with autism!

I don't really have a topic today, have you figured that out yet? No, a million different things are rolling around in my head and I can't nail a single one down and make a post about it. So here are my random thoughts, in no particular order (that's half the fun - disorder!) along with a few random photos thrown in for extra confusion!!

Perhaps I could call this post: Spend 5 Minutes in MY Head!

• exams start tomorrow at school, I can't believe the school year is almost half over
• Carla's challenges - need to make some goals and a plan of action...can't think clearly enough now though so hopefully over the weekend
• sure glad I LOVE vegetables
• when will I get my report cards done I wonder?
• need to buy Shelley a plant this weekend, she'll be back on Monday (her dad died this week)
• why is Kazi so snippy lately?
• still feeling a residue of sadness from watching "The Whistle Blower" (don't rent it!)
• should I still take the car in to be checked now that the engine light is no longer on???
• think I'll wear jeans tomorrow
• wish people would stop drinking my Fresca!
• 4/5 days this week are NO SPENDS - YAY, no $$ for Sealed Pot - boo! That's sort of a microcosm of our country's economy these days...hmmmm....interesting
• gotta get off here and go ride my bike...should I read while riding or play sudoku on the ipad?
• Michael's supper smells really good
• sure hope I remembered to turn the coffee pot off at school
• how can I save any money next month when my income has decreased by $500 thanks to the stupid Canada Pension Plan deductions kicking in again? 
• I don't imagine I'll get a raise this year - our 4 year contract is up and I know Dalton McGuinty wants to keep salaries status quo - I'm ok with that...that means I've reached my top salary!! Wow, that felt weird!
• why does my weight go up the day after I exercise and down the day after I don't - makes no sense at all!!??
• a little nervous about going to Michael's friends for dinner tomorrow night, glad it's just 4 of us though, I get totally lost in a large group
• yay - Kazi put gas in the car
• felt strange to see a little dusting of snow on the ground this morning - wonder if we'll get any more?
• gotta take pictures to sell stuff on kijiji on Saturday - hey - maybe I can incorporate that in each part of the two challenges?? Make some extra $$ (maybe) and declutter at the same time...hmmm...
• maybe I can finish my book tonight, it's getting so exciting - the 2 main characters are out in a speed boat chasing the murderer and they're almost out of gas and there's a hurricane going on!!
• really need to watch a comedy tonight after last night's downer movie - so brutal
• what should I wear tomorrow night
• how do I stick to my diet when someone else is making dinner and I'm a guest??? AND now going to Jambalaya saturday night with Troy - double yikes!
• think I'll get the Globe and Mail on Saturday instead of the National Post, just for a change
• should I go to the market Saturday morning or use the food I have until my next pay on Tuesday? think I'll wait and tough it out!
• weight has been up and down all week though my eating has stayed the same - plateauing already?
• poor Demi Moore
• oh rats, forgot to have a nip of scotch last night in memory of Robbie Burns...oh well, maybe next year hahahaha!

And that's just the surface stuff!

                                 My hummer!

                           PEI coastline - never far from my mind...

                            Pumpkins? No, just very colourful buoys!

                      At Cedar Dunes...now a favorite place to visit!

                   A lonely looking church, but peaceful.

                         Complementary colours....sigh....

                                Here comes the rain!

It's only Tuesday so Why am I so Tired?

Since I was so darn lazy on the weekend I rode my bike 25km last night and only have 20 more to go before I'm in Toronto. I am going to try and cycle those last 20km tonight but I know better than to make any promises. Hey - what do you think about the bike/bed sleeping arrangements?? I know eh? That would save me a pile of money on virtual motel rooms!!

That's not why I'm tired though, because I'm not physically tired so much as I am mentally exhausted. My brain needs a break from thinking.  I've got so much whirling through my mind I can't really follow any thought to its conclusion. 

I haven't been staying up late - it's been "lights out" around 10:30pm at the latest the last two nights. I lay in bed, open my book, read two sentences and that's it, I'm toast!  Right now I have to pee and I'm starving but here I sit not wanting to make the effort to literally "get up and go".  I hope I'm not coming down with anything. I think it's work related as everything else in my life is good. Well, mostly. 

My problem (one of my problems) is that I think too far in advance about...well about everything. Instead of tackling what is right in front of me - the kitchen, the bathroom - and getting those things taken care of, no I sit here and think about how my house in PEI is doing, will it weather another winter ok without me there to look after it? Should we rent a second vehicle next summer and take a huge load of stuff out there? Should I leave the heat on or off? Did Leigh close all of the windows? Should I replace the septic system next summer or wait til we're moved permanently? 

Other things in my head (maybe if I write them down they'll go away and leave me alone for awhile): money (never ending!), students (will end eventually), co-workers (same), Christmas shopping, my quarreling older sisters (long story),the logistics of putting Kazi's bed together, what to eat for dinner, cleaning the candle wax off the table...from the sublime to the ridiculous...just make it all STOP!

Our brains should come with an on/off button!

Sorry, I'm not very interesting tonight, I'll try again tomorrow.

Oh yeah, one more thing...I fit ALL of these criteria...I'm doomed!

Bank Statement Reconciliation

NOT MINE!!

Hokay...I just spent two hours reconciling MY records to the BANK's records because I couldn't get the two to jive and so have lost precious pedalling time and likely gained a pound instead of losing one!!  %7$k#fz*%2@!!

Big sigh....okay....calming down now...why oh why do I put myself through such torture three quarters of the way, more like four fifths, but who's splitting hairs here...oh yeah...ME!! of the way through a month instead of waiting til the end of the month when everything is credited and debited to the account and I have wee little numbers to work with...huh?  If you just followed that line of thought then you must do exactly the same thing!!

So I just drove myself nuts for no perfectly good reason. I forgot that I had made a lot of fancy calculations (errors) but had already manipulated (corrected) them and thus could have saved myself...oh let's see...TWO HOURS AND ONE POUND if I had just waited until the end of the month.

Too hard on myself?? Not in the least - I hope I have taught myself a very good lesson - and that is - WAIT ALREADY!! But then, I have adult ADD, so there you go.

I'm off to pedal twice as far, twice as fast!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. It's a good thing I can type about 120 words a minute because that's how fast my fingers are going right now!!